I don’t know you (unless I do), but statistically, I’m pretty sure you don’t like public speaking. Unfortunately, though, you probably have to make a bar mitzvah at some point, nebech, and you have to speak, even though you’re not the one becoming bar mitzvah. This might stress you out, seeing as you haven’t spoken since your own bar mitzvah, and you didn’t even fully understand what you said at the time. All you know is that it was too long, your parents were claiming it wasn’t too long, and you have no idea whether anyone was listening because you read it from the paper. People told you beforehand that you should look up at your audience from time to time, but when you did that, there were long, silent gaps, and then you lost the place. But the only people listening, as far as you could tell, were your rebbeim, your parents, and whoever it was who wrote the speech.